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        So much time has passed that most of my memories of her have drifted into 
         
        the smokey back rooms of my mind, where the whole experience is cast in 
        an  
        ethereal light of passion so intense, it's taken on a glow of its own. 
        But  
        I've never forgotten her. Probably never will.
      
  Jaime was 25 the summer I turned 18. Well, I say 18, but I spent almost 
         
        a year in a coma and two years recovering from a car accident, so people 
        say  
        I act more like I'm 15. But Jaime was nothing like Evie, the cheerleader 
        who  
        didn't know I existed. Jaime was worldly and beautiful. She had a bawdy 
         
        smile and a drowsy, quicksand voice, and she didn't care what people thought 
         
        of her.
        My dad had a lot to do with us getting together. He figured if I spent 
         
        my teens with an open mind, a little bit of free time and a couple of 
        dollars  
        in my pocket, I wouldn't feel the need to rebel and I wouldn't get into 
         
        drugs. I never did much more than smoke pot, which didn't kill me or lead 
        to  
        heroin, so I guess he was right.
        He owned and ran our local Five and Dime. I worked there in my spare 
         
        time, which was Saturdays, mostly, and sometimes after school. I didn't 
        have  
        regular hours but there was always something I could do, like clean up 
        at the  
        soda fountain, stock shelves, or sweep the floor.
        Dad also sparked my interest in cameras. He let me use his Kodak Brownie 
         
        until I bought a 35mm Pentax. It came in the week before spring break 
        in  
        1972. I almost ran Jaime down, hurrying out of the store with it slung 
        over  
        my shoulder.
        "Are you a photographer?" she asked.
        She was the most beautiful creature I had ever seen. If she needed me 
        to  
        be a photographer, that's what I was.
        "Sure."
        "I want to send some pictures to my husband. He's one of the few, 
        you  
        know, the proud ... a Marine. He's a guard at the embassy in Saigon. Can 
         
        you take them?"
        "Sure."
        "Great, except I don't want to be just sitting in some chair smiling 
        like  
        an idiot." 
        If I said sure one more time, she was bound to figure out I was only 
        18. 
      "I know where there's a creek with a sandbar that's kind of like 
        a  
        beach," I said. "D'you think he'd like that?" 
      "Yeah, far out, kind of a nature thing. When are you free?" 
      For the rest of my life! My small town rearing had left me unprepared 
         
        for anything close to a suave answer. I watched an amused smile played 
         
        across her mouth while I struggled to keep from babbling. I wanted to 
        look  
        at my watch and say, "Well, it's 3 now. How about 3:01?" 
      "Saturday, maybe?" she asked, raising her eyebrows and my expectations. 
         
        How could I refuse? "What's your name, anyway?" 
      "Michael. Michael Kline." 
      "I'm Jaime," she said, extending her hand. 
      I watched her walk away, trying to memorize her image. Her limbs were 
         
        long and slender, but not skinny. Her hair was a vibrant collection of 
        gold  
        and blond, almost white down at the ends, with just a hint of strawberry. 
        Tha 
        t night, I imagined it as orange as Nehi soda when the late afternoon 
        sun hit  
        it just right, and her kneeling naked above me. 
      I tried to pretend it was her unbuttoning my jeans, pulling out my cock 
         
        and teasing the hair around my balls with the lightest touch. Her incredible 
         
        beauty intensified the gentle kneading of her lithe fingers, and her  
        constantly changing rhythm almost deprived me of my senses. When I thought 
        I  
        couldn't stand anymore, she took me between her experienced lips. Then 
        she  
        made me fuck her until she was satisfied. 
         
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        She picked me up in an ancient VW Beetle that ran as rough as my dad's 
         
        beard after a three day weekend. 
      "The latch on the outside doesn't work," she explained, leaning 
        across  
        the passenger seat to open my door. 
      I was so mesmerized by her allure, I forgot my arms were full of camera 
         
        gear and things to make our afternoon more comfortable. I was struggling 
        to  
        get in with all of it when she gave me an are-you-okay smile and pushed 
        the  
        seat forward so I could put my stuff in back. I wasn't okay, I was madly 
        in  
        love. 
      She was wearing a white, crepe dress, with a dozen or so buttons in front 
         
        to hold it closed. Only about half of them were fastened, and she wasn't 
         
        wearing a bra. Her nipples pressed against the pliant material every now 
        and  
        then, especially when she shifted into first or third gear. 
      Everyone knew hippies didn't wear undies or shoes, but Jaime had on  
        sandals like I'd seen in the window at Muffy's Shoe Store. I wanted to 
        stare  
        at her, but I did my best not to unless she was talking. I was completely 
        in  
        awe of her beauty, her sharp features and her expressive lips. I was sure 
        I  
        would melt if she so much as touched me. 
      "There's a couple of joints in the ashtray," she said, glancing 
        sideways  
        at me. 
      "Naw, maybe after we finish," I said, with all the maturity 
        I could  
        muster. "It makes me forget things. I want to make sure these pictures 
        turn  
        out." 
      I'd read somewhere that reefer made you absent-minded. The twenty bucks 
         
        she was paying me would buy new jeans, a work shirt, and maybe even some 
         
        sandals like hers. 
      "Don't let me stop you, Jaime." I'd heard that pot made you 
        uninhibited,  
        and it was fine with me if she got horny and forgot I was only 18. 
      "Well, could you light one for me? I kind of have my hands full." 
      I did, but I didn't inhale. I didn't want to choke and have a coughing 
         
        fit in front of her. She leaned sideways towards me, keeping her eyes 
        on the  
        road, and let me put the joint between her eternally kissable lips. I 
        wanted  
        to put my hand down her top and squeeze the tit I could easily see most 
        of. 
      "I'll shift while you smoke," I offered. 
      Volkswagens are easy to shift. She still had trouble, toking, steering 
         
        and working the pedals all at the same time. We wove from the centerline 
        to  
        the shoulder through the entire doobie. I saw it as part of the adventure. 
        Her personality was effervescent, it matched her flaming, flying hair. 
        I  
        was hopelessly in love with her and everything about her, the way she 
         
        dressed, drove, looked and talked. I memorized subtle things like the 
        way  
        her slender fingers gripped the wheel, the way her lips parted to accept 
        the  
        joint, and especially, the way her lungs expanded when she inhaled. She 
        had  
        long, elegant toes, and hips just wide enough to accentuate her tiny waist, 
         
        which, in turn, made her chest look larger. 
      Once she got stoned, she began to talk. "You don't look like a Michael," 
         
        she said. "Does anyone call you Mickey?" 
      I've gone by Mickey ever since. 
      "Where are you from?" I asked, wanting to know everything about 
        her. 
      "Mars," she said, and giggled. "Not really, I moved here 
        from Camp  
        Lejune about a month ago. I don't know anyone here so I don't get out 
        much.  
        When my husband shipped out for Viet Nam, I moved in with his folks. They 
         
        just retired and moved to Florida so I need to learn my way around. Do 
        you  
        drive?" 
      I didn't answer. I didn't want to lie or give away my age, so I asked 
        a  
        dumb question. 
      "Why'd you marry a Marine?" 
      "I was living with my Mom and step-dad, who was also a Marine. When 
        he  
        got orders for Japan, they didn't mention it until they started packing. 
        My  
        mom, with a tear in her eye, said, 'Sorry, Jaime, but you've graduated 
        from  
        high school, now, so you're old enough to take care of yourself. The rent's 
         
        paid up until the end of the month.' That gave me eight days to rearrange 
        my  
        life. 
      "Jack and I had been seeing each other off and on for about six 
        months,  
        so he moved in the weekend they left. That was seven years ago. He talked 
         
        me into getting married before he went overseas." 
      I found myself imagining what it would be like to sleep with her, naked, 
         
        to feel her body next to mine, my skin smoldering with the memory of each 
         
        caress. My ... 
      "Come on, you old fart," she griped at an old man who had come 
        to a near  
        stop while trying to make a right turn. "Doesn't it make you want 
        to get out  
        and walk along side his car and say, 'Come on, Grampaw, you can make it, 
        go!'  
        If I ever get that old, I hope somebody shoots me." 
      I agreed, of course, but it was hard to imagine her as anything but  
        whimsical and seductive. 
      She parked at the edge of the road near the bridge over Mill Creek. It 
         
        was one of those first, glorious spring days, with the temperature  
        approaching eighty and the Dogwoods just beginning to lose their blossoms. 
        I grabbed my gear and hurried to the path that ran along the bank. Jaime 
         
        was stoned. It took her a minute to pull a huge bag out from behind her 
        seat. 
        "It's not far, only about a hundred yards," I explained, when 
        I saw her  
        stop and frown as she looked into the woods. 
      It was the only sand within a mile up or downstream from the bridge. 
        I  
        had walked the banks a few weeks earlier to see where the spring floods 
        had  
        left the sandbars. This one had been in plain view of the bridge then, 
        but  
        now the trees formed a green curtain between where we were headed and 
        the  
        rest of the world. I had done a great deal of fantasizing about bringing 
         
        Evie down here to go skinny dipping. 
      We could hear the sound of a farmer mowing his yard somewhere down the 
         
        road, but other than that, it was just her, me and Mother Earth. The May 
         
        apples had yet to bloom, but the woods were filled with white and purple 
         
        violets, dandelions, and other yellow or cornflower blue bouquets, and 
        life  
        was full of promise. It was spring, after all, and anything was possible. 
        I shot a roll of film with her sitting, lying and rolling over on the 
         
        sand. I tried to stay back far enough to keep from picking up the redness 
        in  
        her eyes. That was difficult, I wanted to be on top of her. As I reloaded, 
         
        a pair of wood ducks glided in, skied into a landing and paddled around 
        for a  
        moment before they noticed us. They took off again, effortlessly, as if 
        they  
        had planned to all along. 
      I'd spent enough time trying to photograph wildlife to discover that 
         
        sometimes if you're quiet for awhile, they forget you're there. Jaime 
        wasn't  
        about to be quiet, though, and I wasn't going to ask her to be. She'd 
        been  
        drinking from the jug of lemonade I'd brought along, and some of it had 
         
        spilled between her breasts. I wanted to suggest she take off her dress 
        and  
        wash herself in the creek. I also wanted to look down the front each time 
         
        she pulled it away from her chest and complained about being sticky. 
        "Look at this," she said, her eyes trained on her right tit. 
        An  
        iridescent green bug was making its way up the slope of her chest, but 
        what  
        caught my eye was her areolae. It was dark brown and clearly visible beneath 
         
        the flimsy crepe. It was bigger than a silver dollar, but not as big as 
        the  
        saucers my eyes probably were. 
      Men are easily influenced by tits. The idea that all men love big tits 
         
        is a myth. Big, small, it doesn't really matter, as long as they're properly 
         
        displayed and appear to be available. Not available in the sense that 
        just  
        anyone could grab them, but touchable as part of an intimate embrace. 
        When  
        she realized I was admiring the gentle sweep of her breast, not the green 
         
        bug, she laughed disarmingly, gave me a shove and said, "Silly!" 
        She waded out into the stream, holding her skirt, daintily negotiating 
         
        her way over the rocky bottom. I let her go down stream about twenty feet, 
         
        raised my camera to my eye and had her come back the same way. She was 
         
        watching her step so intently, she completely forgot I was there, allowing 
        me  
        to capture her relaxed innocence, which blended perfectly into the natural 
         
        surroundings. 
      Everything about her exuded femininity, the way her hips flowed from 
        side  
        to side as her weight shifted, the way she held her dress out of the water, 
         
        even her serene, slightly dope- reddened eyes when she looked up. 
        "Why don't you do something that'll make your husband wanna hurry 
        home,"  
        I said, thinking maybe she'd lift her skirt up to her thighs. 
      To my delight, she set about unfastening the rest of the buttons on the 
         
        front of her dress. She pulled it open, shrugged her shoulders and let 
        it  
        slide down to her hips. Her body emerged like a banana. I was so  
        dumbfounded, I forgot my camera until she pulled her arms out of the sleeves, 
         
        cocked her hips and put her hands on them in a kind of, What-did-you-expect? 
         
        pose. The image I had created in my fantasies paled next to the real thing. 
        I finished the roll, quickly reloaded, and put on a portrait lens, pulling 
        her 
        quivering nakedness even closer. I was lucky I didn't step on my tongue 
        I didn't have to worry about stepping on my dick, it was climbing towards 
        my belly button. 
      As I shot, she shifted her hips a couple of times and her entire dress 
         
        dropped into the water at her feet. She was wearing panties, but she stepped 
         
        out of them and they floated away with her dress. One frame would later 
        show  
        them still within reach. They were several yards behind her in the next. 
        Aft 
        er that they were indistinguishable from the foaming white water going 
        over a  
        shoal, and there in the dappled sunlight was Jaime, completely, proudly 
        and  
        gloriously naked. 
         
        I managed to keep my cool, snapping away, saying, "Thank you," 
        over and  
        over, under my breath. When the film ran out, I put in another roll, but 
        the  
        spell had been broken. 
      Before she came out of the stream, she leaned forward until her hair 
         
        trailed into the water. Then she came up fast enough to fling it back 
        over  
        her head. I can still picture her untamed femininity, hips swaying from 
        side  
        to side, as she walked up to her bag. 
      She pulled out a towel and started to pat herself dry. I forgot what 
        I  
        was about and stared. She made no attempt to hide her sensual beauty, 
        she  
        just smiled, tilted her head slightly and dried her ears. That completed, 
         
        she moved close enough to drape her dripping hair over my gaping face 
        and  
        shook out enough water to bring my attention back to earth. The image 
        of her  
        tits, complete with goose bumps and drops of water, is tattooed on my 
        brain. 
       
        "Nobody should have to wear cloths," she began, stretching her 
        arms  
        skyward. "I could stay out here forever, with nature and all, soaking 
        up the  
        sun." 
      Then she looked at me. 
      "Don't you have any sisters?" she asked unpretentiously, as 
        if that, not  
        her stunning charms, was why I was staring. 
      "No." 
      "Obviously. The human body is beautiful. It should be admired. Would 
         
        you please get my dress?" she asked, pulling a pair of cut offs and 
        a T-shirt  
        out of her bag. 
      I fooled with my camera until she had them on, then waded into the icy 
         
        water. I had never been so close to a naked woman in my life. 
       
      Early the next morning, I lay on my back, on my bed, with visions of 
        her  
        smokey, gray eyes, flawless tits and furry muff dancing before me. I  
        fantasized she was watching me, covering her mouth and giggling bashfully, 
         
        realizing what a profound effect she had on me. My ejaculation nearly 
        hit  
        the ceiling. 
       
      That afternoon, she appeared at her door wearing bib overalls with  
        nothing underneath. I had to sit on my hands to keep from grabbing her 
        while  
        she went through a stack of 8x10's I had spent half the night printing. 
        She  
        put her favorites into an envelope addressed to Jack. 
       
      In my dreams for a week, I walked up to her and we made love standing 
        up,  
        there in the stream. The following Sunday, prepared to take advantage 
        of any  
        opportunity I was given, I was back on her couch to offer my artistic 
         
        services again, or try to hire her as a model, when the phone rang. It 
        was  
        him, calling from Saigon, wanting to know who she'd gotten naked for. 
       
      "Jesus Jack, he's only a kid! He's barely 18, but he acts like he's 
        15,  
        for God's sake." 
       
      After that, I couldn't bring myself to deliver the speech I had spent 
         
        hours practicing in front of my mirror. I figured that was the last I'd 
        see  
        of her. 
       
      Needless to say, I was elated to find myself face to face with her at 
        the  
        store a couple weeks later. She was surveying the creme rinse reluctantly, 
         
        but broke into a smile when she recognized me. She offered to buy me a 
        cup  
        of coffee when I got off. I figured she still hadn't made any friends, 
        so I  
        led her to the snack bar, where I put a cherry coke on my tab for her 
        to  
        drink while I finished putting out shampoo. 
       
      "What's there to do in this town?" she asked as we stepped 
        outside. 
        Go somewhere and fuck our eyeballs out, I thought to myself, but out  
        loud, I suggested the next best thing. 
       
      "Let's go over to your place and get stoned." 
       
      "Sure, why not." 
       
      I was horny long before I took my first hit, which was so small I  
        couldn't possibly choke on it. Unfortunately, I buried my desire beneath 
        the  
        mature facade I was hiding behind, trying to endear myself to her. By 
        the  
        time she ushered me to the door, it was hard to believe so much time had 
         
        passed, or that I could fall anymore hopelessly in love. 
       
      The next evening, I found myself approaching her house, wondering what 
        I  
        was going to say if she answered. When she opened the door, she acted 
        as if  
        she had just run to the door all the way from the back yard. I didn't 
        know  
        it at the time, but she was suffering from sexual disorientation. She 
        looked  
        back at me through an unruly shock of flaxen hair and led me to the couch. 
        Th 
        ere, she tucked her feet up under herself, tugged on the belt of her  
        creme-colored, silk bath robe and held my hands in hers, on her knees. 
        Her  
        distended nipples were clearly visible, begging for my urgent attention. 
        She  
        mumbled something about talking to Jack on the phone. 
       
      I didn't figure out what she was saying until the next morning, after 
         
        replaying the evening over and over in my mind, unable to sleep, wondering 
        if  
        I ever would again. In a round about way, she had told me that Jack  
        sometimes got up early to call her on the embassy's secure line so they 
        could  
        have phone sex. As usual, he finished quickly, leaving her needs largely 
         
        unattended. She was trying her best to carry on after he hung up, but 
        her  
        frustration with his selfishness was occupying her thoughts and eventually 
         
        won out. 
       
      All I knew was that the look she was giving me suggested that if I could 
         
        keep from wetting my pants, something incredible might happen. She  
        hesitated, trying to decide if I understood what she had said. I leaned 
         
        closer instinctively. She moved toward me, our mouths almost touching. 
        Suddenly, she pulled my lips to hers. 
      I wasn't sure what kissing meant. My experience with women consisted 
        of  
        making out with eighth graders. I was afraid if I grabbed her, she might 
         
        kick me out, but I was soon so drugged by her potent charm she couldn't 
        have  
        pried me away. She didn't try. Her tongue parted my lips, seeking out 
        and  
        demanding mine. She was giving into the desperate longing awakened on 
        the  
        phone, and I was about to embark on a journey into manhood. 
       I kissed all the places I usually kissed girls, but none of them  
        responded the way she did. The sensuous electricity was like nothing I'd 
         
        ever experienced. In an effort to show some sophistication, I nibbled 
        gently  
        on her left ear. She opened her robe and squeezed her tit. I figured that 
         
        must be where she wanted me. As soon as I moved in, her hand slithered 
        down  
        to caress her thigh. 
       As I moved to her other tit, she attempted a similar maneuver, but her 
         
        lovely fingers only made it half way to her other thigh. By the time I 
        had  
        licked my way down to her silky pubes, her frisky digits glistened with 
        the  
        results of her enthusiasm, and when I slipped my finger into her, I thought 
         
        she was going to tear off my clothes. 
       "You're already wet," I said, dumbfounded. 
       "The wetter, the better," she said hoarsely, her half-smile 
        and the far  
        away look in her eyes told me she was already somewhere I'd never been. 
        I drew my tongue up her heavenly slit, reveling in my first taste of  
        love. She responded with an encouraging, gasping shiver, so I did it again. 
         
        Her hand slithered around behind me, titillating my family jewels in such 
        a  
        manner I licked her again, and again, and again, until I had excited her 
        to  
        the point I was sure her neighbors could hear. When she relaxed, she gave 
        me  
        an insolent grin and rewarded me so expertly I was inclined to repeat 
        my  
        performance as often as possible in the weeks to come. From that night 
        on,  
        we spent every possible moment in bed. 
       Jean-Paul Sartre once said that a mobile is an object defined by its 
         
        movement and having no other existence. My relationship with Jaime was 
        a  
        sexual mobile; we existed only for each other's pleasure. 
       "Do this," she said, showing me how to use my index and middle 
        fingers on  
        either side of her clitoris to masturbate her to orgasm. She seemed to 
        melt  
        under my touch. I rubbed her gently in a slow, circular motion until she 
         
        began to lick and tug at her nipples. That meant I should start rubbing 
         
        faster, up and down over the shaft. I quickly discovered how to tell when 
         
        she was about to come so I could slow down and let her enjoy her "little 
         
        deaths." 
       Jaime loved to masturbate. She sometimes stopped before she climaxed 
        to  
        let her arousal build. She savored her 'tweeners,' as she called them, 
        the  
        spirited treatments she gave herself rather than languor while her lover 
         
        recuperated. It only happened once with me. After that, all she had to 
        do  
        was start and I got hard. 
       "What am I going to do with you?" she said one afternoon, rousing 
        me from  
        a blissful, post-coital slumber. I was lying on my back, and she was  
        sprawled out on top of me. I was close to drifting off again when she 
         
        continued, "I can't take you to lunch. I can sneak you in the back 
        door for  
        dinner, but I can't take you dancing, and if we saw a movie, people would 
         
        talk. What are you good for, besides fucking?" 
       "I don't know, but I'm ready again," I said, feeling her provocative 
         
        wiggle on top of me. 
       She giggled wickedly, feeling me stiffen. "You are good for that," 
        she  
        said, abandoning her charms to me once again. 
       I told my parents I was going camping one weekend, snuck out my record 
         
        collection and spent the weekend at Jaime's. We didn't leave her bedroom 
         
        except to make a sandwich, grab a soda, or put on another stack of albums. 
        We 
        made love to Steppenwolf, Crosby, Stills & Nash, Led Zeppelin and 
        the Guess  
        Who. She introduced me to Tim Buckley, the Velvet Underground, Leonard 
         
        Cohen, and even a little Chopin. 
       "Isn't there a song called, There's a Little Bit of Bad in Every 
        Good  
        Little Girl?" she asked. 
       "I don't know," I murmured before drifting off to sleep. She 
        had more  
        than a little bad in her. Of course, I was only too willing to engage 
        in  
        whatever mischief her naughty little mind would hatch. 
       She delighted in showing me each new contrivance, rapidly expanding my 
         
        sexual repertoire. I was an unrelenting student, eager to learn, and even 
         
        more to practice, unaware that it would be years before I would have another 
         
        lover willing to participate in such a wide array of sexual adventures. 
        She gave me my first blow job on my nineteenth birthday. She sat naked, 
         
        legs crossed in front of me and drew her fingers up the rib of my cock 
         
        excruciatingly slow. Encouraged by my smile, she wrapped both fists around 
         
        my shaft, put her mouth over the head and started moving up and down. 
        I  
        leaned back to gaze into her eyes and watch her honeydews bounce. Her 
        sultry  
        expression would have been enough to siphon the come out of my balls, 
        but the  
        rapid rhythm of her lips moving up and down my cock was almost unbearable. 
        She seemed to know when to lock eyes, allowing her to judge when to back 
         
        off and pump me, smiling with devilish satisfaction as she watched me 
        explode  
        like a Roman candle. I have not experienced her equal in all these many 
         
        years since. 
       Having calmed me down, she became a woman who expected cunning, dexterity 
         
        and lingering mastery. She attached her mouth to mine and proceeded on 
        her  
        own until the sparkle returned to my eyes. 
       "You've really got it made," she said watching me as she stroked 
        my  
        erection, her bedroom curtains ruffling in the breeze and Debussy playing 
        in  
        the living room. "Older women love a stiff, young cock. As often 
        as you can  
        get it up, you could take care of half a dozen horny women." 
       "Why should I care about other women when I have you?" 
       "You can't have me forever. Jack'll be home one of these days and 
        I  
        can't exactly hide you in the cellar." 
       I knew she was right, but I didn't want to think about it. I was hard 
         
        again. I pushed her down on the bed and mounted her from behind. We had 
         
        other conversations about her needs, which I now know was how she assuaged 
         
        her guilty conscience. She must have been lonely, and afraid her man might 
         
        not make it home. We continued that way all summer without getting caught, 
         
        and through most of my sophomore year. And all the while, I thought I 
        was  
        her stud, and she was in love with me. 
         
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        Jack did come home in one piece at the end of his tour. He had thirty 
         
        days of leave before he and Jaime had to report to Camp Pendleton, CA. 
        I  
        thought I was going to die. Or rather, I wished I would. My life was over. 
         
        Nothing would stop the pain. 
       I started dating toward the middle of my junior year. I'd never told 
         
        anyone, but rumors spread and I developed quite a reputation. I even went 
         
        out with Evie, but after Jaime, she was just a dumb teenager. 
       She wasn't as dumb as Jack, though. He volunteered for another tour in 
         
        June of '74 and Jaime was back. She appeared at the store one day out 
        of the  
        blue in a dress that looked like it belonged to a twelve year old girl. 
        What  
        appeared to be the waist line fell just below her tits and the skirt barely 
         
        reached her thighs. She made sure I saw her, and once I did, it wasn't 
        hard  
        to figure out what she had in mind. 
       We were barely inside her front door when her dress came off. I fell 
         
        over, trying to get out of my bell bottoms while she fellated me into 
         
        something useful. She took me easily, kicking the door closed and wrapping 
         
        her legs around my hips to drive me deeper. Life was once again worth 
        living. 
        She had me take her back to the creek, but not for pictures. First we 
         
        did it doggie style on a blanket. Then, after a picnic in the nude, she 
         
        showed me her favorite outdoor activity. Reclining on an old, wooden chaise 
         
        lounge I kept for years after the canvas rotted away, she communed with 
         
        Mother Nature in a most impassioned manner. 
       She spread her willowy legs gradually, in a very unladylike manner, and 
         
        allowed her doting fingers and "naughty" thumb to become her 
        rhythmic lovers.  
        I watched her toy with the roseate tips of her bouncing beauties, then 
        moved  
        over to "help;"she needed the extra mouth and hands to accommodate 
        all the  
        areas that needed attention. She lost track of how many orgasms she had 
        that  
        afternoon. 
       We were frantic lovers until Saigon fell and the Americans abandoned 
        the  
        embassy on April 30, 1975. Tim Buckley also died that year from an overdose 
         
        of smack. It's probably a good thing I never experienced that euphoric 
        high. 
        One day after school, I was lying on Jaime's bed about an hour after we'd 
         
        made love. I had another erection and was trying to get her interested 
        when  
        the door bell rang. It was a chaplain with a telegram. I could hear  
        murmuring in the living room, but I couldn't make out what they were saying. 
         
        About ten minutes later, she came back in and sat on the edge of the bed. 
        "Jack got hit by a sniper's bullet while he helped refuges into a 
         
        helicopter on the embassy roof. He died instantly." 
       I had been waiting on dinner at home the night before, half watching 
        the  
        news, half thinking about Jaime. I remember bits of footage, desperate 
        South  
        Vietnamese trying to beat down the embassy gates to get on a chopper and 
         
        escape Saigon. I wondered if I had seen him. Those images still haunt 
        me. 
        Last I heard, she'd taken up with some hippie who had hair down to his 
         
        ass. He came back from Nam a few years earlier with a foot locker full 
        of  
        pot, and had made enough money selling it to buy a run down house with 
        no  
        indoor plumbing over behind the implement dealership. It was more like 
        a  
        shack. With her working full time, they got by. For a long time, I hoped 
         
        she might still come back and want to get married. 
       It took most of my senior year for me to recover. Eventually, I did  
        though, but I was determined never to open myself up to be hurt that bad 
         
        again. 
       Over the years, I've justified my involvement with her by maintaining 
         
        that men who leave their wives to go off to battle shouldn't marry women 
        with  
        such acute needs, or those who do should stay home and attend to them. 
        The only picture of Jaime that survived my married years was a double 
         
        exposure I took by accident. One image was her sitting on the edge of 
        the  
        bed naked, trying to look sexy, but cover herself at the same time. The 
         
        other is her in a spaghetti- strapped evening gown facing away, but looking 
         
        back over her shoulder with a shock of hair hiding one eye. I get it out 
         
        every now and then, look at it, and wonder. 
         
        I went away to school and stayed after I graduated, knowing I'd make a 
         
        better living as a photographer in a college town than I would back home. 
        I  
        got married, divorced, and ended up in Florida. I was amazed when she 
         
        tracked me down, but there she was at my door one day, 25 years after 
        she'd  
        walked out of my life. I was speechless. 
       "So, you're still into photography," she said, stepping inside, 
        her eyes  
        searching my living room, assessing what I had made of my life in a single 
         
        sweep. 
       "Yup." 
       "I'm not surprised. You captured my very essence when you were, 
        what,  
        fifteen?" 
       "No, I was 18. I'm not surprised you're ..." I began, wanting 
        to tell  
        her she was still beautiful, but her lips made it clear we could talk 
        later.  
        We sort of embraced, sort of danced our way to the couch. Eventually, 
        we  
        separated to catch our breath. 
       "I've dreamed of showing you I haven't forgotten anything you taught 
        me.  
        Plus, I've learned a few things on my own," I said while I undressed 
        her. 
        She smiled, her breath increasing slightly as I removed her stockings. 
        Wh 
        en she was nude, I stopped to admire her. If anything, the years had  
        improved her. There were a few faint lines on her face, but they seemed 
        to  
        add wisdom to her dazzling features. 
       "I work out," she explained, as she unfastened my belt. "My 
        lover ..." 
        It was my turn to clamp my mouth over hers to remind her we could talk 
         
        later. She undressed me slowly, her lips never far from mine. 
       "I don't recover as quickly as I used to," I said when, once 
        again, I  
        felt her mouth accept my throbbing cock. 
       "I have all afternoon," she teased. 
       "Good. This time we can go to a real beach. It's just across the 
         
        highway," I said, kissing her lightly on the lips. 
       "You live alone?" 
       "I have to. You spoiled me for all other women. Except for my wife, 
         
        I've done nothing but hop from one bed to another ever since you left." 
        She  
        responded warmly, holding me by the rear. 
       "You were my second lover, I've only had four and I've never cheated 
         
        except with you. Do you still come as quickly as you did?" she asked, 
         
        smiling. I smiled back, but didn't reply. 
       I wanted to hurry into it, to rush down to the beach. I thought I had 
         
        grown up, but I hadn't. With her, I was still that same impatient youth. 
        "Let's make love here. Then maybe on the beach," she said. 
       I wasn't about to argue, her fingers were already making me shudder and 
         
        her mouth was everything I remembered. The sublime texture of her lips, 
         
        their smooth fullness, the heavenly pulse of her suckling and the way 
        she  
        gently cock my with a bird-like touch took me back to high school. I was 
        in  
        ecstasy, but I couldn't allow myself to come without showing her the  
        expertise I had developed over the years. 
       I managed to back away and kneel in front of her. I stroked her from 
        the  
        dimples inside her knees to the very edges of her fur with the backs of 
        my  
        nails. I didn't put my mouth on her until she was beside herself with 
         
        desire, pushing her firm tits to her lips, one at a time, swirling her 
        tongue  
        around her areolae until they shimmered with saliva. They still had that 
         
        same cinnamon-tinged ripeness. 
       She palmed them, kneading and squeezing them, adding to the intensity 
        of  
        her inner fires. Only then did I lick a path up the inside of one thigh, 
         
        then the other, avoiding her most sensitive flesh. By the time I touched 
        her  
        clit, she was smoldering. I teased it with my tongue and sucked it until 
        she  
        begged me to fuck her. 
       The thrill of entering her, that first exquisite stab was nearly  
        orgasmic. I paused, deep within her while I gazed into her eyes. For a 
        few  
        seconds, we held each other with gentle laughter, as if to say it was 
        still  
        too good to be true. Then I began to fuck her with long, powerful stokes. 
        Sh 
        e responded naturally, driving up towards me, encircling me with her sultry 
         
        softness. 
       I watched her give in to the approach of her orgasm and savor it with 
        a  
        kind of elegant detachment that heightened her elation. When it arrived, 
        she  
        bit her lip sweetly, closed her eyes and launched into never-never land. 
        I  
        was so enthralled watching her that I let my own climax sneak up on me. 
        I  
        didn't notice until it was too late. She opened her eyes halfway to  
        acknowledge it, but then drifted back into her world of ecstasy. At least 
        we  
        came together. 
       "I've been known to last longer. I promise I will on the beach ... 
        if  
        you let me calm down." 
       "Sex on the beach," she laughed, "I'll drink to that. 
        You never did let  
        me come much before you did." 
       "It only happens with you." 
       "Shit, I hate to think of getting back into that," she said, 
        gesturing  
        towards the smart business suit she had arrived in. She looked good in 
         
        everything, and better in nothing. "I would have brought something, 
        but I  
        couldn't exactly drag a suitcase out to the car." 
       I got her a bath towel, which she wrapped around her waist like a skirt. 
       "So far, so good, but what about these?" she asked, cupping 
        her tits. 
       "You have two hands don't you?" 
       That familiar giggle filled the room. 
       "If you run across the highway like that, I'll carry a bag in one 
        hand  
        and my balls in the other." 
       "Fine with me, as long as you don't drop them." 
       I didn't think she'd actually do it, but as I watched her lope gracefully 
         
        out my front door, I had no choice but to follow. Her supple beauty was 
         
        arresting. 
       For a couple of hours, we were young again. She dropped her towel and 
         
        ran directly into the surf. I caught up with her in the breakers, where 
        she  
        sank to her knees and sucked me hard. This time, she lingered, bringing 
        back  
        memories of days gone by, when her lust was almost unquenchable and I 
        had the  
        youthful stamina to keep up. Finally, she laid back, pulling me down, 
        into  
        her satiny snatch. We quickly fell into a rhythm of erotic delight, buffeted 
         
        by the roiling surf, but too turned on to uncouple and move. I tasted 
        her  
        salty lips and devoured the spongy softness of her erect nipples. 
       She was everything I remembered, the perfect sexual play thing,  
        guiltless, animated, uninhibited and passionate. I cherished her orgasms, 
         
        each sweet, dazzling bit of death and their tender suffusion as I plowed 
        into  
        her. Over and over, I could hear her whimpering softly in a voice quivering 
         
        with excitement, saying unspeakable things I couldn't quite make out. 
        All  
        too soon, I felt my own orgasm approaching as her panting and mounting 
        tumult  
        reached its indescribable peak. I wallowed in the clenching tightness 
        of her  
        throbbing bundle of coital nerves for a few precious seconds before I 
        flooded  
        her with liquid proof of my rapture. Together, we shivered through orgasmic 
         
        bliss. 
       Sometime after the last ripple of fulfillment passed, we danced in the 
         
        swell until daylight was a pink memory, fading fast above the dunes. And 
        we  
        have many times since.
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